Hang In There!

Sunday, August 24, 2014




You may have guessed it that I didn't keep up with my goals from my last post.

SCREWED UP EVERY SINGLE ONE.


Took the cab everyday. 

Kept up with the mini workout for only 3-4 days.

Ate a bunch of junk instead of a bunch of lettuce. (My tummy is getting so fat now!)

It has been 2 weeks since I last blogged! :(



I am really quite disappointed in myself. Why are bad habits so hard to kick? How do I get myself to be more discipline? I am so frustrated at my lack of discipline. At this rate, I am going to accomplish nothing in my life. This isn't what I envisioned myself to be. There is so many things that I want to achieve in life. However, I am afraid to take the first step or unable to because I am lack of discipline. I feel that I won't be able to take up bigger challenges in life because I can't even commit to small things. Littlest things like getting out of bed on time, or keeping my blog alive. I really want to get out of this vicious cycle of procrastination and then feeling defeated. I wonder if anyone of you feel me. I am really disgusted at myself.


Just last week, I went for the Student Representative Council interview and I was so embarrassed that other candidates had so much achievements in school. They were either head of something or have organised something before. I had nothing... Throughout my school life I have taken the back seat and now that I want to join the Student Council in my last lap of student life, I doubt I will be given the chance. 


I really have so little to offer. 
:(





BUT IT'S OKAY!!!! 

*POSITIVE VIBES*

I just have to keep trying! At least, I am not complacent with my current state and think it's okay to be a bum. I believe that if I keep pushing for it, soon I will be able to correct myself before I am too old. It is hard to live everyday like your last day because we always think we will live to see the next daylight. Nobody on the airplanes that crashed knew they would die. Perhaps, some of them were like me waiting to start anew, only later when they reached their destination, but never to reach. A missile may be on it's way to turn me into ashes right now as I type, and I would be so damn pissed off at myself for I have not been making good use of my life. *Touch wood*

My life will not be wasted trying but only be wasted if I give up. 

I CAN DO THIS! 

Everyone has 24 hours a day but why are some people more successful than the others? DISCIPLINE! 

I once read that discipline is like a muscle and you have to keep training it to keep it strong. Hopefully, after forcing myself to be more discipline, it will be less of a struggle.

If I want this change badly enough, I will stick to it. 
I am so blessed to be surrounded by positive and motivated people around me.
Recently, I have been watching Superwoman's video and she is super funny!


This video really inspired me! Watch it! Watch her other videos too, especially those about parents!
Hope her videos will entertain you as much as it did to me.



                  


For a start, I have just written down tonight's plan so that I can be productive!





Now, I shall go prepare myself a healthy dinner, with boiled chicken breast.

Thank you so much for reading!

Till next time!




P.S. If you haven't been following me on Instagram, you may not know that I have taken off my braces. Here's a picture! :)